alhamdulillah......
after all the struggling,
finally i manage to get my dipl in civil engineering.
ofcourse i'll never pass through this hard time without them. IRA. NAWWAR. PAAH.
secare cliche org akan tanks kat parends dulu kan . but. nadaa. parend jatuh carta sikit dalam hal ni,
sebab korang tau kan how sempoi my family.
"it's ok alang if u feel that was too tough, just quit. don't force urself."
sempoi bukan. so it's them. kawan sejati yang push me to the limit.
n second baru terime kasih mak, ayah, yong, anje, for all the doa.
anje once text me " ayah sampai bagon 3 4 pg semayang hajat tok ko alang, stop calling him n crying. thats making him worried"
n last but not least terima kasih ya Allah, for the strength.
macam mane pun aku usaha, x tido malam sampai mata lebam kalah panda masok dewan periksa. but if Allah said it is not my rezeki to graduated on time. so it will be. jadi... syukur, walaupun aku x minat dengan course ni, aku rase payah sangat nk masuk dalam kepale ape y aku belajar but i made it. bukan takat lepas2 gitu je.. cgpa aku pun alhamdulillah. semue ni rezeki dari allah. terima kasih ya Allah..
BUT!
that just an intro..
cerita sebenarnye adalah.
civil is my wrong decision.
adik2 lepasan spm yang nak apply upu. tolong jangan pilih semborono,
kenapa aku pilih civil? dulu yong study electrical engineering. n yong punye cgpa 3.5+ gitu. so i've thought yong can do it. why can't i? but i dint take electrical sebab mamat elec yang kat poli yong tu x hensem. mamat cicil hensem2. so i decide to take civil.
yes. that y..=P
apekah civil engineering. apekah yang mereka pelajari . yang susah sangat tu.
ok kiddo. ianya tidak lah mengerikan sangat. IF u have interest. which is i dont.
basically its not about imagination. kte bukan orang y design banggunan. BUKAN. itu keje arkitek
kite adalah orang2 yang mengira. civil is about calculation. the concept, the formula.the formula is not even given in the final
we have to do the calculation about the soil, about the concrete, setiap inci banggunan. ade pengiraan.
semue pengiraan.!!!!
dan kalau ade budak perempuan yang nak ambik civil. boleh. tapi be tough. korang kene compete dengan boys yang ade lebih tenaga dr korang. face it. akui nye. n in civil, korang jangan nak gedik x tahan panas.
berdiri tengah padang, tepi highway for 3 to 4 hours is compulsory.
AND
how this wrong decision lead me to 'degree in computer science'
mari kte bongkar semue rahsia.
ceritenye begini. aku x nak ambik civil, tapi aku x ade kekuatan untuk terus jump into new world.
mase kene isi borang penerapan ni macam risau yang amat. mane nak tahu kalau aku akan minat dengan course baru ni. baik stay je kat civil. at least u know how to deal with it. x payah nak strugling dengan bende baru. so kte isi jugak civil as 3rd n 4rd choice.
tapi sebelum..sebelum tu lagi i've done my istikharoh.
over n over. sebab mase dipl dulu main taram.
so i knew this time i've ask Allah to guide me. after all HE the one who knew better.
dan aku x dapat any petunjuk y jelas. selain dari hati yang berbolak balik.
so kte pun isi borang penerapan buat kali ke2.
dan kte sumpah. kte x igt ape yang menyebabkan kte pilih sains computer.
yang kte tau. sehari sebelum result penerapan keluar. kte tergerak hati nak cek. betul ke kte isi civil no 3 dengan 4.? (i'm totally forget that I've renew my choice by then)
then bile bukak. SNAP. tangan kte shaking. esok result keluar. dan beberape jam sebelum tu kte baru sedar kte dah letak sains computer sebagai pilihan course. tapi mase tu kte fikir, it's ok. that 3rd choice, maybe dapat businees (which is my first choice.)
besok.. hari keluarnye result. tahniah anda dapat sains computer kate die dalam bahasa pasarnye.
again. i'm shaking. BLANK!
should i be happy or worried or dissapointed.
and untuk keberape kali , can't remember. not even count.
aku buat istikharoh. again. over n over again.
after 3 to 4 days i've made a decision.
i'll take it.
